My title says it all! It is true. See, I know, I know I am suppose to learn to just be. Learn to rest and relax, learn to take a day where I go into that day with gratitude and appreciation of all that God has done for me, in me and simply just to rest in Him.
I also know the value of being being still and simply breathing God's refreshing breath and just focusing on Him. Here is the issue, I can't seem to do it. I can't seem to detach myself and simply focus. I am not sure I know what my problem is...
This week, Lora, Torin and I are on vacation, we left from an impactful leadership conference called Catalyst in Atlanta to Orlando. I have seven days here in Orlando. I feel guilty being away, I feel terrible not being around the office when NCC is going through a time of transition and could use some manpower to move stuff. I hate not being around as we vision and pray together as a church and as a team about the future. I suck! I am going to try to disconnect atleast that is what I tell myself.
Can I honest? I don't think I can. I don't think I can avoid checking my work emails and focusing on what is happening in Washington, DC at the office. I hate not being there...
What can I do? Any practical suggestions for someone like me? I really want to try to do this week long Sabbatical/vacation, however, I feel like I will fail, I already have. Maybe my Sabbath is in moments and not days, maybe my calling and what I do is my Sabbath. You know I don't know. Here is what I do know Lora gets frustrated with me and I can't give my full attention to Torin and I worry like crazy that I am letting others down.
How can I learn to disconnect and maintain a Sabbath? Any suggestions?
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